Thank-you to everyone who took the time to respond especially those who responded to my initial post. I do feel better. The comments that have been provided throughout my time on this site resulted in my gaining a better understanding of the Jehovah Witness religion and what was occurring with me.
@WTWizard, As you are aware, there is a lot of judgement within the Jehovah Witness religion and I did not want to be a part of that. However, I felt that I was being taught to judge. Therefore, I am glad that I put an end to the study because the person that I was being built to be was not the person that I wanted to be.
@ShirleyW, Not associating with others who are not Jehovah's Witnesses was one of the first things that I questioned within myself. It didn't seem God like to me. There was a time where I believed that the Jehovah Witness religion was the one true religion. However, when I began to have doubts, what occurred was a slow unlearning of what I had been taught.
@john.prestor, Thank-you. Jehovah's Witnesses are not allowed to have friends that are not Jehovah's Witnesses. I did not want my bible study conductor out of my life. However, I did not want to continue in the study. Eventually, I came to the conclusion that the study had to stop. With that reasoning, I also came to the conclusion that my relationship with my bible study conductor might come to end. Event though I did not want her out of my life, I eventually accepted the fact that might be a possibility and I made peace with it.
@nicolaou, Thank-you for sharing your story. So many individuals have been impacted by the Jehovah Witness religion. Some of these individuals were not even Jehovah's Witnesses.
@Wasanelder Once, Eventually, that was what it became. I didn't want to disappoint anyone and I buckled. It did feel that I was being pressured into being baptized because the topic of baptism kept coming up. I did fail in believing that the Jehovah Witness religion was the one true religion. However, I never said anything out of fear of being labeled an apostate. Seems like whenever someone questions something or is not accepting or in agreement with what is presented within the Jehovah Witness religion, the person is automatically labeled an apostate. I felt that it was not safe for me to belong to a religion where I was not free to express my opinions.
@smiddy3, it could be that those who are vulnerable are easy targets to become a study. That was how I became a study. I was vulnerable. Sadly, there is no asking confrontational questions in a study. Those that do, are labeled an apostate. A witness would not entertain such questions. They would automatically end the conversation.
@The Fall Guy, several individuals on this site have commented that prior to being baptized, they did not believe the truth to be the truth. However, they went on to get baptized because they did not have the courage to say no.
@jookbeard, Thank-you. Many agree with you.
@Vanderhoven7, Yesterday's study was difficult. It might have been the most difficult study that I have had. I am glad that it is over and I feel a sense of relief. Yesterday's study was not even a study. It was more me being questioned as to why I had not established a relationship with Jehovah and what I needed to do in order to establish a relationship with Jehovah. How the Jehovah's Witnesses viewed establishing a relationship with Jehovah was not how I wanted to establish a relationship with him.
